Who am I? Well I
wrote something years ago in my blog, but I had a moment that pushed me further
to the right. That moment was after the
Aurora shooting. When liberals went wild
and started crying for the scrapping of the Second Amendment to the US Constitution. I cannot stand these cowards! They would honestly want to lay their hands
on a document that has worked for 220+ years just because of their irrational
fears? They are puppets with their
strings being pulled. Gun violence has
dropped in the USA since the 1990s, despite the fact that gun ownership has
steadily been on the rise. FBI
statistics prove that more murders are committed in the USA by baseball bats
than guns, but I do not hear anyone crying to ban baseball bats. This is not a rant about firearms and
Constitutional rights though; it is about who I am. As you can tell it was Aurora that motivated
me to go even further to the right.
I am basically white or Caucasian (or just a damn
cracker), but it is not that simple, because I am an American. I am half Greek from my father. My grandfather immigrated into the USA during
the 1920s. From my mother I am 12 other
races: English, Welch, Scottish, Irish, French, German, Dutch, Ukrainian, Turk,
Black, Mexican and Sioux Indian. So I am
your typical American mutt. Exact
percentages are questionable, because my mother’s family tree is blocked,
because she was adopted and the only thing I have to go on is the list she gave
me. I grew up in Gary Indiana and just
outside Detroit (an area we called Sin City).
I am a Junior High dropout; the last grade I finished was 8th. My father was physically abusive to the extreme and my mother borderline insane, not very nice things to say about my parents but accurate. I lived on the wrong side of the law as a juvenile
and that is really all I will say about that. The thing I knew best growing up was violence, it was in my home, at my school and on the streets.
At the age of 17 I packed up and moved to Orlando Florida, because of
the before mentioned reason. At 20 I was
married into a premade family to a woman 10 years my senior. She was a good person and I caused her a lot
of heartache, I am sorry Darlene. I got
into a little more trouble with the law (nothing I will mention), but I was
convicted of nothing. I was divorced by
25 or so (actual date is confusing and if I told that story you would not believe
me).
I decided I was tired of being an uneducated idiot; it
was stifling any career opportunities.
So I pursued a college degree. This
was a tough course to follow, not because I am not intelligent enough to
achieve this dream. Real life has a
habit of interfering with long term goals.
I did not get my BA in history until 2010. I did however graduate Magna Cum Laude. As of right now I am almost done with my MBA
and on the waiting list for a local law school.
Politically my journey is very confusing. As a delinquent I had no real political
opinion on anything. I was more
concerned with money and drugs. When I
started to have real concern for politics, I am not very sure. I combined my own firsthand knowledge of life
with Marxist theory. I believed a hybrid
was possible between capitalism and communism that could feed off human nature
for its own good. I embraced many
theories that for lack of a better word are lies. I was however not a western liberal
leftist. I traveled the path of a Third
World Revolutionary, I believed the only way to bring about change was through
violent revolution and peaceful revolution was preached only by cowards. I ended up blogging and gained a following
all over the world (approximately 10,000 people at my peak). I was a true revolutionary (I would say
communist, but I did not embrace that theory completely) and believed that any
who did not embrace the new system should simply be shot. Well a typical Western style liberal became infatuated
with me and it lead to a relationship.
Typical because even though she said she agreed with everything I said,
still there was that John Lennon peace mentality in her beliefs. When this ended I went into a phase of self
examination and accidentally put all of my beliefs under this same
microscope. This is my point of
enlightenment. I discovered that the
teachings of the left (on almost every level) are not compatible with human
nature. The only way for the
philosophies of the left to succeed is if human nature is changed to suit
them. Now I hope I do not have to explain
to anyone how unlikely that result truly is.
So I left the Esteban Najid (my pen name) personality behind and
concentrated on finishing my degree.
I still was not active politically, even though I did
lean right. I had given up on
politics. I saw both sides as too
corrupt to care about and I just wanted to live my life. I still voted and tried to be the best
informed voter I could be. The reason
for this is I believe if you do not vote, you have no right to bitch. Since I make a whole bunch of noise (I know,
shocking right?) I felt it was my duty to vote and not be a hypocrite. See this is my biggest pet peeve, I cannot
stand hypocrites! I have always believed
that you should practice what you preach or shut up. I am not talking about falling short from
being perfect, no one is perfect. You
must make the best effort that is possible to follow through with the words you
say. Then the Aurora shooting happened
and liberals went wild in their attacks on the Second Amendment to the US
Constitution. I am sorry, but the Second
Amendment is my main issue. Without it
the people are nothing more than serfs.
You cannot fight back against anything or defend yourself in any way if
you do not have the right to bear arms. Once
the liberals started their attacks on the Constitution I drifted farther and
farther to the right, making more and more noise along the way. I have seen how they show their true colors
of yellow PC cowardice. I have seen how
the media embraces the news stories of the left while ignoring shocking stories
that would gain them good ratings (Kermit Gosnell and Benghazi for
instance). They blow out of proportion
every single shooting and if you look at the people doing and approving these
stories they hate gun rights anyways.
The left has not learned what I did, that their policies are not compatible
with human nature. Do they think they
can change human nature by the fruits of their policies? These fruits are
creating an underclass with no hope of achieving anything, but they view
prosperity 10 miles away and on the television.
This same underclass is crime ridden, because they want money for the
finer things (with no other way to get it) or drugs to escape their dismal
future. This is still a risk versus
reward mentality, which is one of the most basic principles of capitalism.
So now I sit on the right side of the political fence. I am not a very good conservative, but since
I trust the US Constitution I would make a horrible liberal. I also do not believe in the 1960s mentality
of protest and revolution. I would make
the streets run red with blood before I would let a dirty hippy rewrite the Constitution. I am still in a process of learning and
growth, which I am fine with. As Bruce
Lee said, “the day I quit learning, is the day you can put the final nail in my
coffin.” He also said, “I am not a
master, I am a student master, because I am always learning.” I am not the most intelligent person, but I
have gained wisdom by walking a very hard path.
I would not trade any of my past experiences for the world. The path I have traveled has led me to the
point I am at today. I know I am not
perfect, but I am comfortable with the person I have become. I can only strive to improve who I am on a
daily basis.
I probably shared too much information in some ways and
not enough in others, but my life is so full of contradictions and confusion I
could not know where to begin or end. So
this is my overview I provide to the curious, to those who wonder how I got to
where I am today.
