Monday, December 28, 2009

I think I am officially old now :(

In the past I wrote exclusively about political issues, this time I will try to mix it up a little with light hearted things, much like what I am going to say right now...

Yes I am concerned that I am officially old. I quit smoking more years ago than I can remember and a side effect was I gained 100 lbs before I noticed what was happening. I know that statement is hard to swallow. Yet it is true, as my lungs cleared up, I felt so much better that I never noticed the excess weight I was putting on. I am sure it also had a lot to do with the crap that I was eating at the work cafeteria. I always put off getting myself in shape, I always had an excuse. I was driving tractor trailer and just could not eat right, I was working full time, going to school full time and had no time to workout or even cook. Always great excuses, they convinced me of my inability to change my situation. Well I went to the doctor in October and I was 297 and I freaked! I had hit 300 before, but I was determined to not hit it again. Plus the fact that I had put on almost 30 pounds in the past year made me decide it is time to get serious and make a change.

Well since October of 2009 to today I have changed a lot of how I function. I am learning about foods, trying to eat right, stay away from crap that is just not good for you and today I think I made the ultimate sacrifice. I was looking at cereal, trying to decide what cereal I can eat that does not have high fructose corn syrup in it. I have been getting total, and will grab a bowl when I do not have time for something better. Well today I discovered Grape Nuts, have not opened the package and I am afraid to. Yet the fiber will do me good.

I am also doing almost 100 miles a week on my exercise bike, along with a reasonable deficit of calories on my intake, since mid October I have lost 49 lbs. Once I get down to 230 or 220 I plan to start a serious work out schedule to get myself back into the shape I was in 1998, before my life slowed down and my weight started to go up.

Grape Nuts thing still through me for a loop... time to cook some fish...

Monday, December 21, 2009


Not being rich,
How can I understand a rich world.
Not being happy,
How can I depict a happy world.
Not having any dreams,
How can I possibly sell dreams.
If you lie, you usually get caught.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Welcome to my world

I am an educated thug. A junior high school drop out with a BA. An inner city punk, living in the middle of nowhere 25 years later. I have done more than my share of drugs, yet despise them and believe they should be legal. Someone with no faith in any mythical higher power, yet I would pick up my guns to protect someone's ability to practice their faith. I cannot be called a patriot, yet I love where I live. Basically I seem to be a master of contradictions with what I believe. I see myself as a mirror of society and the human race as a whole though. I am not the contradiction, the contradiction is our society as a whole!

I will be drawing attention to all of these things in what I write. I will be very blunt and severe in my judgments. I will most likely not allow responses on most of my writings. I do not care what pseudo intellectuals have to say. I only want to make people think, to contemplate everything they do and say. If we have an honest opinion of all the challenges that face us as a species, then maybe a solution that has a degree of sustainability will be achievable. Yet above all else, I will be calling people out for the bullshit that they believe/preach. Practice what you preach, because being a hypocrite is the unforgivable sin.

Why Suscitate? "To rouse; to excite; to call into life and action."
Why a-nihilism? People do tend to be a bit nihilistic by nature and a-nihilism is a play on words for annihilate, which is a reference to our violent nature as a species. I am no hippie who says all we need is love. I say we could probably progress better as a species if we accepted our violent nature and put limits on it rather than denied it. Also violence (war) has been a part of diplomacy ever since the first city states were formed.

Just to warn you, no issue is too taboo to embrace or attack. You have been warned. If you do not like what I have to say, then start your own blog and make it coherent! If the references you use to support your position are shit, just sit down and shut the fuck up. Because if you do not realize that Wikipedia is not a legitimate source, not only should you not vote, you probably should not breath. One more thing, I know my grammar is shit. Read above, jr high drop out. Obviously I did not get a BA in English.